How to Change 2021

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Sunset


This year, I decided I'm not going to concentrate on doing. That's the mistake I make every year. Not bad, just not enough. 

This year will be different. That I've decided. Instead of a list of things to accomplish, I'm going to concentrate on one thing: being.

I've been inspired by new friends on Twitter. I've seen what slowing down looks like through pictures they post, all requiring patience or good timing or just a mindful eye. When I saw these pictures, I realized I never see these things in nature because I'm rushing. I'm looking for that spectacular sunset, or an unusual object, or something out of the ordinary. 

Now, I want to be more like them. I want to catch the sun illuminating a seed pod, or a drop of dew dangling off a blade of grass. I want to catch the faint hint of pink on a normal sunset, or formations in clouds that look like dragons. I want to be more present in this world instead of rushing for the next thing. 

I haven't made this decision lightly. I've been working on seeing these little marvels and capturing them the best I can. I've stood in a cornfield while the sun was rising, not planned but drawn there by colors streaking across the sky. I found the chase exhilarating as I planted myself among the roots and watched the sky be painted in different hues minute by minute. It was meditation.

I want to do more. I want to stop. I want to see. I want to appreciate.

I hope your resolutions bring you peace, kindness, and fulfillment. I hope you turn this year into something never before seen or tasted or enjoyed. It's there. I'm sure it is.



Comments

  1. Elizabeth LabrieJanuary 3, 2021 at 7:28 AM

    I have noticed you starting to practice "being" in the latest photographs you have posted! Enjoy, good luck, Peace and Happy New Year!

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  2. AmyJanuary 3, 2021 at 8:42 AM

    Thanks, Elizabeth! This is the reason!!!!

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  3. UnknownJanuary 3, 2021 at 10:52 AM

    That is beautiful, Amy. And I feel honoured to be amongst those who have inspired you

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